Putting something off

I hate this. I'm in the throes of a large procrastination jag this week. I can't set my mind to anything more consequential than feeding my Neopets.

The interesting thing (in a remote sort of way - can't spend too much time thinking on it), at first I think I'm putting off doing everything from schoolwork to voting to dishes. But in truth, when a cross-section is cut away and revealed, there's a task at the center that's to blame. I fear that one task; I am putting off doing that one task. And all other work must wait until that task is done, due to some subconscious prioritizing. So then nothing at all gets done.

But exactly which thing am I putting off? I won't tell myself. It's like I'm a kid, and I broke a vase, and now I'm trying to hide it from my parents by stuffing it into a box full of broken toys.

I need to write down everything that's due, and then just charge through the list. Even if this mysterious thing I'm putting off isn't done to perfection, it'll be done, and I can move on.

List after the jump. Be warned. Do not enter!

* Write an intro and conclusion for the West Sacramento General Plan project
* Print the rest of the GP including maps (425 pages!) (sorry, trees)
* Read Bardach + other reading(?) for tonight's class
* Buy snacks, napkins, plates for tonight's class
* Arrange snacks artfully upon Tupperware
* Fill out voter pamphlet
* Vote today (when?)
* Deposit check

Some of this will have to be done when I should be working. Cri-i-inge. The good news is, seeing this all laid out, I think I know the secret source of my misery is the intro and conclusion. I'd better call Maya. Maya, I'm going to call you.

Comments

[maya]

Call away. I've been up since 5AM.

[uneasy rhetoric, inveterate procrastinator]

I feel your pain. The procrastinatory state is the default one for me. On the other hand, I highly recommend voting by mail (in the future, of course -- too late now). I haven't had to think about elections for two weeks.

[Anthony]

Never do today what you can blame on the Democrats tommorow...
What kind of music instruction is Bunny interested in? Instrumental or vocal? If the latter, don't you think it would be FAR MORE INTERESTING to hook her up with DK? Having the only child in Sacto capable of singing "Kumbaya" in multiphonics would win you SO MUCH status at the local Mom-minglings! Not to mention what a splash she'd make at the UU conventions. ("We hereby move that the term 'convention' be replaced with 'voluntary mass assemblages'")

[pam]

"DK" is a professional singer of our acquaintance, whose specialty is disturbing vocalization techniques. And for the record, No, I DON'T think. Sacramento is barely far enough away from the sound of her burbles and shrieks; I won't encourage a resurgance in my own home.

[e]

oh, i do this. it got to where i haven't gone out in the backyard since the four-in-a-row hurricane scares of 2004. hadn't gone to a grocery store in three years. hadn't put away the laundry, in fact slept with it in a pile at the foot of the bed. i do this. never did figure out what it was, but it's moving now, at least a little bit...